MY MORNING ROUTINE

I never considered my self a morning person, even though I used to wake up pretty early when I was a child, mostly to read books. 
Nonetheless, I always considered late afternoon my most productive time of the day. I still believe so, but since I started having a morning routine, it definitely made a difference throughout the day.

It all started back in January 2015, when I finally decided to read "The Artist's Way" by Julia Cameron; I wasn't really convinced in the beginning, especially when I found out I was supposed to write the so-called "morning pages"... three pages filled with anything just comes to your mind, to do first thing in the morning!
I was terrified. I haven't written a journal since I was 16! But in the end, I decided to give it a go.
Taking time to be alone with yourself can be pretty scary...you never know what may come out, and putting down your biggest fears and hidden secrets in black and white requires strong motivation.

At the same time, I joined an "Artist's Way group", to go through the book every week. This helped me to stick to this new resolution. I finally had a group where I could express my blocks, and fears, without being judged. We were all artists, suffering from the same fear of rejection, exposure, impostor syndrome - you name it. I have never been surrounded by artists before simply because I haven't realised (or admitted) I was one until that very moment. That had been the most revealing and liberating experience in a very long time, so the weekly meeting group became essential to me.

Someone might argue that writing three pages of random thoughts before having coffee can't do any good...that is what I thought too. But the power of the morning pages is not in what you write...but in the act of writing itself, which has a double effect: 
the first one is "decluttering" your mind.
You give a voice to all your silly, mean and negative thoughts, you give them a "physical space" on your page, you can complain as much as you want, so after that you can go and create.

Because creating is what an artist is supposed to do, isn't it?

Second, it creates a positive cycle: having a routine and sticking to it makes you feel stronger and motivated to have new habits.
Because you  never would had thought you would be able to wake up earlier and write three pages of non-sense, right? Yet, you made it.
So maybe, you will be able to do some other things you would like to...
And that is how you start to change.
Since then, I stepped out of my comfort zone many times, and have been able to overcome rejections and criticism.
I just wish I had started before...
Maybe I will write about this in my morning pages tomorrow.